"Shamanism is not a course, but a life-journey"

Alberto Villoldo

When I was 22 years old, I heard for the first time from a fortune teller that I had a unique spiritual talent and that my life would change dramatically. At that time, I was working in a logistics company and planning my family privately. I dismissed this "prophecy" as nonsense, but life turned out differently than I had planned.

In my late 20s, I had everything I could wish for. A promising career in an international company, an exciting love life, enough money to spend, and looks that attracted a lot of attention. I felt invincible, and the world was mine. 

Well, reality hit me hard. The stress increased, the demands at work also increased steadily, and at the same time, my weight increased. The sleepless nights started, and pain in various parts of my body appeared for no apparent reason. Things suddenly didn't go well with dating either. 

I ignored all that. I got an even more challenging (and promising) job, moved to Glitzy Munich, worked like crazy, and partied even harder. This came at a price. My body suffered. I was constantly in new pain. I began to isolate myself at home, ate junk food, and put on more and more weight. 

Due to a doctor's error during a standard foot surgery, many more surgeries followed. I walked on crutches and in a bandage shoe for almost two years and was in constant pain. I was on sick leave so often that I could no longer do my job. My career went downhill. 

Suddenly, panic attacks occurred, and I felt utterly desperate and alone in my life. I saw no other way out and started taking antidepressants. Of course, that didn't stop my depression, it just kept going down. 

A year later I had a complete breakdown:

BURNOUT

I could not get out of bed, slept 14-16 hours a day, and realized that my brain was no longer functioning. I was utterly hopeless and ready to give up everything. 

When it was so dark that I could no longer see any light on the horizon, I made the most important decision:

"I'LL BE OKAY."

I quickly discovered that conventional medicine was not going to be my answer. Instead, I began practicing yoga and meditation, embarked on a Hero's Journey, participated in several Holotropic Breathwork retreats, and danced ecstatically. I joined conscious communities, went to soundhealings, and wrote my daily morning pages. 

With each bit of exercise, I felt better. I started to heal physically and emotionally. This motivated me. 

After 600 hours of Vipassana meditation, I managed to get rid of my antidepressants (hooray!) Gradually, I began to see the light at the end of the tunnel. 

At this point, shamanic plant medicine entered my life - and with it, the light became steadily brighter. The medicine helped me to recognize and heal my greatest trauma. Day by day, the clarity in me grew until suddenly I heard my calling in a ceremony:

"I AM A SHAMANIC HEALER."
 

I trusted this calling and followed the path of the healer. I completed several pieces of training such as Energy Healing, Business Coach and Trainer, and Reiki Level II.

After many more ayahuasca ceremonies and a shamanic plant diet in Peru, ayahuasca initiated me with the words:

"YOU WILL SEE THROUGH MY EYES AND I WILL HEAL THROUGH YOUR HANDS."

Since my initiation, I have been working as a shamanic healer. I could not imagine a better, more fulfilling task today. The feedback from my clients touches my heart every time and always opens new channels for me. 

For the first time, my work feels like a dance and fills me with energy. I feel infinite gratitude when I look back at the path I have already traveled.

I continue on this path with great joy and look forward to everything that is yet to come.